Where's Ya Ball Balls ?

Its official , i had no balls yesterday and had to leave a decent 25/50 game twice when i got up to $8,000 and $10,000 respectively. Or maybe i was just being sensible, i just couldnt face the prospect of flipping for a $16,000-$20,000 pot and i was playing too tight cos of this. Did win the 2 allin chunky pots with double gutshot nut flush draw vs top 2 pair (59%) and Q1097hh on a J86hh flop vs AAxxhh (43%) though so pleased to report a decent day in terms of profit. Won on the lower stakes a bit as well. Made about £4,850 in the end. Wanna keep the grinding going really but will still play high if table fish lingers around so could easily donate this back quickly.

Lower Stakes

Couple of small dabbles at 3/6euro and 5/10 shorthanded but 95%+ hands at 1/2 2/4 euro/$/£. Unsure exactly how many hours i put in, would guess more than yesterday but took longer breaks. Made about £350 in the end but still lost my cool too often and didnt really enjoy it too much. Couldnt face any mtts so nout has changed on that front. Proper grinding at mo lets see how long that lasts (prob till i see really bad higher stakes game).

Mixed Start

Played 30-45mins in afternoon and ran bad losing around £1,000 on 10/20. Returned in evening and played for about 4.5 hours. Was steady at first then took some good chunky pots and probably was +£3,000 for the month at peak but lost couple of set ups near the end and finished only £200. More worrying was how little i enjoyed it and how often i lost my cool throughout the day, whats new eh.

2009 Review

Goal at start was simply to make over £100k in profits. Pleased to report final profit of £298,937.

Jan - 40,064
Feb - 123,122
Mar - (12,156)
Apr - (11,874)
May - 74,490
Jun - 22,590
Jul - 19,538
Aug - 5,924
Sep - 15,590
Oct - 13,040
Nov - 14,783
Dec - (6,174)

Already reviewed my best bits so cant be bothered to waffle on. Need to learn how to cope better with complacency and downswings but this is something i struggle with. Probably should have gone abroad in the last few months too. Im daft but housebuying got in the way and i didnt bother which was dumb in the end given how my mindset has been the last 2 months.

Am still gonna play good omaha games in 2010 but im currently looking at the option of playing more tables at lower stakes for x hours per day x days per week. May go back to playing some nl holdem mtts too and i hope to play a similar number of live events throughout the year. I may never make as much in one year again and as such im not bothered about setting unrealistic targets. As long as i make £50,000 im fine although it would be nice to top 100k again if possible.

Dec Review

Pants. Lazy, complacent, undermotivated, very few sessions enjoyed. Did win to begin with but went on a downswing of over £18,000 to finish -£6,174. Was taking a shot at higher stakes at times and obviously not a good idea really as i havent coped with the downswings mentally at all. Cant think of much else other than mayb i should go back to updating blog more, that rant i put on here earlier immediately after the event really cleared my head unstead of steaming for hours. Kind of forgot why i set up this thing, always good for a moan to get it out of the system.