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god i hate ********* that think they r gods gift to poker and frankly they cant play for ****.
ok stuck to the rules my god they ******* tough if im honest, its like trying to give up an addiction or something. Rage fills my veins regularly and i squeeze the stress toy and bite my lip well so far but god knows how long i might last.

worst ******* **** beats of the day, not beats but sick flips for gods sake these awful players need so much luck to win. last 28 of the $4500 on crypto ($55) and i go ultra agressive mode bluffing my arse off. Stack goes from middle to monster in no time uncalled other than a pot odds 44 vs A9 that held for a 20% of stack pot. Then the fun and games arrive 11 left i lose 10s vs AQ off to go 1st/10 and we hit final table a few moments later the first hand is dealt and im allin QQ vs AK preflop. Pot to go , yep dont even need to look, 1st/10 again but no the deserved king smashes the low flop/turn to pieces and once again im in a rage.

did win some cash earlier after losing a wad early in the day but im sick to death of ***** gettting so ******* lucky and i just aint got the focus to play much at the moment or properly.

right positives away from poker playing loads golf and doing running cycling etc, lost the vegas weight be nice to lose more or at least get somewhat fitter but easier said than done, watch this space.