When It All Went Wrong

I swore, i hit my fist on the table and i gave myself a very very hard time. Aint felt like this since Vegas, fuming but at myself mainly. Just busted everything except mansion which i guess im deep in 1/4 field left on average chips but im on aggressive tilt now. Just raised 3 in row a moment ago and got away with it then reraised a gay min raise from massive chipleader with J8std but he folded. I doubt i last long unless i get lucky or calm down but at least i will go out on a decent pot.

Cant b bothered with full details but basically i was leading or 2nd in the 40k for at least the first 2 hours before donking chips off then losing a massive pot to a dick who thinks he has implied odds with 55 to flop set vs my top pair top kicker. Joke hate being knocked out by a joke but i played shite with the big stack anyway, too tight as too many tables on the go and just stupid dumb decisions.

Also just busted the CPC final which i subbed to at the last minute. AA vs KQ might as well call it preflop as the fool put half of it in pre and deserved to flop 2 pair then turn the fll house. FFS im livid

Oh just busted mansion as i write, 77 vs AA gets quads then go for value with K8 on bb 3 way but dont improve. 220/1050 odd some people think thats good but personally i think its a pile of ******* ****.

As u might tell i wasnt in the mood for poker today, i know i cant play with any sense of a hangover but tried to anyway as it was "mild". Put all my shit play down to that and i aint playing again on a ******* hangova. Did cash in £35 w hill one but ******* **** 21/220 odd , busting AA vs 22 2 on flop but not preflop, would never got away from that in my life. Pokergods are not smiling and neither am i what a ******* joke.

Betfair some **** took most my chips betting like a **** , blimey i hate it hate it so much. Oh almost forgot the french calling station that ****** me over in the $100k on ipoker basically backwards dummying me with K10std when i have 7s and hes only too happy to limp then call half his stack to catch a 10 high flop. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Oh and finished 13th A9 vs QJ to have gone 6/13 in the CPC lite promo i played, cheers for that pokergods.

I know i can take the ups and the downs of poker but thank **** i have a ******* blog to get the ******* downs out of ******* system. Think you can say im lucky its almost a fresh month = fresh start, this month might be a £4k profit which normally i could be happy with but thats ******* crap and im ****** off with how unlucky ive been at the real big payouts bits this month, that figure could easily have been £4k x ?

Yeh i luv poker and thank **** i write this blog cos im already feeling calmer now, at least i dont think i will smash anything, well i hope anyway. Just to clarify im not unlucky tonight i just played like a ****.